so jeez.
i guess its been awhile. ive been so wrapped up in this whole shebang. its pretty fun. my phone doesnt work here. whatever cingular. i dont care though. its one less thing i have to deal with. currently i am so emotionally drained it physically hurts. kids come to me with the silliest problems. i deal with it because they are awesome and also, i am getting paid. there are 9 of them. all of them in high school. they are all so sweet and creative. before coming here i figured that the kids would either be these rebellious teens whose parents sent them to ohio academic camp to "chill out" or that they were really nerdy kids who lived around here. i was sort of wrong. half of them are pretty nerdy in a fantastic way. but they're all from all over the place. we have new jersey, canada, florida. its pretty wild. i like it. i think that by now we've all gotten way too comfortable with each other. which has turned out to be a good and bad thing. i throw parties and make the boys wear make-up. well just one but he loves it. i made a fort the other night with this kid, nate and we made scary masks out of paper plates and drank root beer. i dont think ive drank as much root beer as i have here in ohio. its kind of ridiculous.
as far as the staff goes i think ive learned a lot from them. i always judge people without really getting to know them, not giving most people the benefit of the doubt. i think when i came here i tried to get away from that. i guess its just hard for me to understand who's being sincere and who isnt and whether that matters as long as people are alright and happy. ive come to the conclusion i expect very little from people. one of those traits being, that they at least be not assholes. and that they are open-minded to people that have experienced different things.
anyway. ohio is pretty funny. its pretty sad too. if i were to live here for a long time. i dont know what id do with myself. especially. here in tiffin, ohio. there is nothing around here. you have to drive 10 minutes away to get to a superwalmart. i heard a lot of teens hang out there. i thought that was a little strange but i mean, whatever floats your boat or something.
hanging out with kids is funny because they're all like 14-16 and we talk about old nickelodeon shows. its funny how big a part of my life those cheesy shows were. as i talked to them they brought things up i barely remembered like playing kirby on nintendo and the ridiculousness of the "beanie babies" craze. and how creepy furbies were. we talked so much one time coming back from the rock and roll hall of fame museum (which was really lame) that i was reminded of this computer game i bought when i was around 15. i dont remember what it was called but the game was based around this mythological dolphin creature that you had to sing to and make it comfortable around you. a microphone was included and you had to use it to communicate with it and soothe it. if you yelled or it didnt like your voice, it ran away to one of the five settings in the game. it was stupid. i remember spending hours just staring at an empty rainforest, hopeful that the dolphin would fly (yes, it could fly) back to me. the game just allowed you to hang out with this weird creature. it was kind of cute. i remember i fed it apples and berries. and there was one kind it didnt like. i fed it that one, once. it started coming back less and less. i think i got so frustrated with that game that i just threw it out. or gave it to my cousin maybe.
ohio weather is so awkward. i was walking downtown and i felt trapped. it felt like when a dog keeps nudging for you to take it outside. and hes nudging and nudging and its 6 in the morning. and you feel totally terrible and miserable and you get up to take him out. and those few minutes are the worst thing in your life. i dread those minutes. i feel like the living dead. also inanimate objects are out to get me. just saying.
